Saturday, September 22
*finally...*
the one week break is finally here for me! hehe... i know lah, it started for a lot of ppl yest... hey, but i gt tcm lor... luckily, my teacher for tcm was nice enough to let us off early @ 11am, instead at the usual time of 3.30pm... :P now with all my things packed, i am ready to go home for the week! hope i din forget anything wor...
have to start mugging for my upcoming tcm exam le... gt the feeling i cannot finish studying wor... aiya, will worry about that when i come from ... from ... TAIWAN!!! it's sweet of my brother to sponsor about 80% of the trip! :P kinda of excited about it now... muahaha... will post lots of pics when i come back! :P
had a long talk with KY yest nite... realised more about myself by some of the things that he said... i also realised that i need to talk in order to get it out of my system... cannot let it bottled up... thanks for listening... :)
congrads on getting the best poster, gal! glad that everything had ended for u... can start to relax abit... rest well when u are home! :P dun think about things too much... focus on what's there in malaysia... and eat and shop till u drop! i wanna see a chubby YP ah... muahaha...
sorry that i can't be there most of the time for u... take care... see ya when sch reopens... :)
Wednesday, September 19
*sleep*
Hated the feeling where slp is out of my reach... my slping prob seem to be coming back again... had a lousy night yest... can't really fall aslp... was tossing and turning till like 4 plus? errrr... irritated... wanted to wake up early to study one... then end up only woke up at 11! really cmi!
does not really help when i am trying to forget and u keep appearing...
Saturday, September 15
*tired...*
just had night cycling... very tired, both mentally and physically...
had a few accidents here and there, but i survived it all... thanks to all who was there for me, esp yu xiang... thanks for accompanying for the second half of the race and your encouragement...
one year had passed... but things are so different now... sometimes how i wish it is not so... reality can be so harsh, slapping it right into my face... :(
Tuesday, September 11
*with a smile...*
"It's not an easy task to act cheerful and happy on the outside, when deep inside, the tears are actually flowing uncontrollably.
It's hard being stressed out and desperately need a shoulder to cry on, but yet got to appear strong and jovial as that's what people brand you as."
took this out of Shawn's blog...
exactly described what I had been feeling for the past 2 weeks or so...
told myself that this is not the way... need to pull myself up... not easy but i am really trying... talking to various ppl does help me put my feelings into prospective... Thanks for those who had been listening to my woes for the past few weeks... your words of encouragement had been a great help to me... :)
slowly getting my life back on track again... even though not easy...
Thursday, September 6
*pretentious world*
saw another side of ppl yest that i had never seen b4... a bit turned me off halfway through, felt a bit disappointed? i guess in situations like this, they had to become like that... somehow rallies had the power to change ppl... i hope this is just for yest, not what they really are... if not, i will disappointed, not just with myself and with them bah... it would showed that i had never really truly know them at all, right from the start...
-guess u chose to not let ppl know the real u, from what i see... can never differentiate which are your real thoughts anymore...
and i dun really wan to know at this point in time...
someone made an offer for me to change blk the next sem... mayb i should seriously consider?
Monday, September 3
*now...*
guess now it had really set in... guess no point crying over it le... went to lessons with a goal to be more happy... it was not too bad for the first day... still able to crack jokes and laugh over funnie matters... most importantly, i was able to say out " it was truly over," to my frens without tears welling up... recovery would be slow, i guess...
Sunday, September 2
*thanks...*
Thanks to everyone around me that showed concern... real thanks...
although it is a very tough time, i will survive it... it will probably make me a better and stronger person...
after careful considerations, although i dun want to, but i guess it is better that i let go... like what u said, this is probably the best for the 2 of us... i din realised that my persistance had been such a burden to u... maybe in a way that u are right in saying that i was self-centred... in the long run, this way is probably less painful for either of us...
take care and all the best in everything u do...
