*disappointed...*
feels disappointed... no motivation to study, guess i will just flunk my quiz on sat...
feels disappointed... y do things have to be this way?
feels confused... given unclear signals... not sure where to go...
feels stubborn... not ready to give up...
feels irritated... cannot understand why one can say such things...
hated how the way things are going...
*life... is sucky...*
the new sch year started with a bad start for me... but this seems to have spread to my other frens... and each had been hit hard by it...
what's wrong with this year?! i just wanna my frens to be happy... is that even too much to ask for??
*today...*
supposed to b a special day... but no longer is...
i am okie... mayb at times will be a bit sad... but i will survive... learning my mistakes and trying to correct them... will i be given another chance? i dun know... mayb not... hurt and disappointment is probably too much...
regardless of it, i am not giving up at this moment...
all i wanted to say... I still love u, hippo...
*first friday in the new school term*
a normal hectic day as usual... tcm is getting on my nerves le... this time also no recording too cos the mp3 player belongs to *u know who*.... sianz.... totally lost in the lessons... can actually fell aslp during the lecture... *smack forehead*
speaking of sleeping... been sleeping a lot lately but the quality is not gd... keep waking up in the middle of the nite to check my msn and phone for msgs... something that i had not done in ages... reminds me of the other time when the same thing happened... think it's time to visit the doc again... i need my slp back...
dear fren, hope everything works out for u... will be there for u if u need me... just a few doors down... always feel free to knock on my door... :) wan to see your happy face again... :)
hope your eye is getting better now... do take care...
*thank u post*
thanks KY for the Coach coin pouch from US... :)
thanks San for the entry in her blog and her chocos!
thanks yinghao for cheering me up and the delicious muffins...
thanks Jace(one of our DnD sponsors) for the excellent makeup and hairdo today...
thanks Sean, Sally, Shuying & Elizabeth for today's hard work...
thanks Vincent and Eldine for coming to help...
thanks Danny for taking the clothes down...
thanks Sijia for coming to help out too...
thanks the 10 contestants for their wonderful effort for the photoshoot today...
thanks to all who had gave me encouragement and concern over the days, giving me strength to move on...
:)
not sounding logical le... haha...
*yest...*
think i scared quite a bit of ppl yest... din mean to do so... it is just an outlet to release my vent up feelings that had been accumulating eversince i dun know when... i guess it was not really very effective bah... cos there is still feeling of lost... & confusion...
May tml be a better day...
*another new sch term*
FOC just ended, so is my responsiblities in FOC main comm... supposed to feel happy that i had done the role that i always wanted but somehow, i was not feeling happy at all... to me, it ended with a heavy feeling... i did not felt the achievement that i had dreamt of getting... what a way to end... *shrugs* life still goes on... time wun stop just for u... i still had to carry on with my life...
sch just started today rather heavily... had 3 lectures.. nearly died in the midst of lectures... *bleah* still had not gotten the mood back for studies... later will be going for the joint hall bash... gt the feeling that my life is going to spin out of control... again... mayb just letting loose will just gain my sanity and the ablity to feel anything back... and make the feeling of losing something precious far far away...
